Not that I think anyone is listening, but I had a few moments and just felt the need to blog. To say hi to anyone out there listening, to just share what’s going on in my life.  I haven’t written in a while and I just had a hankerin’.

Not too much has been going on here in my life personally – the world of a business owner is quite consuming! We have officially been “open for business” for over 6 months and we are still so busy and feel so blessed.  Because of the business we have been able to tackle even more debt we have been working on including all of our kitchen remodel – 9 months to pay off our $12k kitchen? Love that.

Until we are able to hire someone and / or purchase another photo booth we plan to just try to limit our bookings.  Since we are both working our full time day jobs we just realize how easy it can be to get burnt out. Last month we had four events in one weekend and after working already a full week at our jobs it was KILLER. Never again.

In other news, one of my best friends got married last weekend… it was a beautiful wedding and I was so happy to be a part of it.

In just this past month I’ve had a few friends get engaged… one of them being my best friend from high school, Kristen, who I’ve been waiting to get engaged forever it seems (as was she!).  She will be getting married next October and I couldn’t be more over the moon for her.

Last but not least, the true story of my life. This damn weight-loss journey.  I started the journey November 1 of last year.  I was serious “this time”. And I did great for a couple of months… dropped off almost 25 lbs. Now that it’s 8 months later I was hoping to say that I’ve been down at least 50 pounds but I am not.  Although I have tried to stay in my weight loss range and not gain, I haven’t been doing the best.  My ultimate goal had been to lose 50 lbs when I started by my friend Ashley’s wedding and it didn’t happen. The fact that I lost 25 lbs in the first couple months I thought for sure I would have surpassed that goal. I want to say it’s all my fault, which it is 100% but I can’t sit here and keep kicking my ass and not doing anything about it. I need to realize it’s a new day and if I ever want to feel better not only physically but mentally and the thought of every having a baby then I need to make it happen NOW.

So I have decided that I’m going to make bigger changes. The little things haven’t worked for me.  I’m going to be trying to book a week at the Biggest Loser resort this week.  To get away from life for a week.  Kick my ass in a way I’ve never felt and to feel so accomplished at the end of it. I need something more. After that week I’m giving up a lot to be able to afford going to a personal trainer for 3 nights a week to keep me going. Someone to keep me motivated that doesn’t care about the fluff and only cares about one thing — getting me fit and won’t take my excuses.

This is a lifelong struggle for me. This is hard and unfortunately I know that it won’t ever get easier. I just pray that I will get to appoint that although it’s not easier, I love it much more then the alternative — because as of right now, 27 and a half years into my life, it still hasn’t clicked.

Pray that it clicks. Please click. For my husband. For my friends, my family. For my future family. But most importantly for me.